god is she hot
and short too
your type

i know this

she likes the same music as you do
and her body is perfect
do you remember her in cooks forest

yup

did she wear a bikini?

i think so

i love it when she goes tanning at our house
on the deck out back
this one time she just said screw it and took off the top completely

hahaha nice

it was hot
i cant even count how many times i have seen her naked

so0o0o0o0 u trying to make me stab myself or what?

and god do i love it when she wears her hair down

*stabs self*

i can keep going if you want

i remember playing with her hair when it was still wet

the shampoo she uses at home smells soo good
she loves to have her hair played with too

guh
i know
i loved every second of it

the only thing i dont like about her body is the scars
did you ever see the little round one on her back?

not that i know of
i dunno

i did that to her
we were drunk
and we burned each other with cigs

u know what i think i did see that
either that or uve told me the story
cause that sounds so familiar

but yeah, i hate the scars
the ones on her near perfect arms
the one on her hand
the ones on her legs too, they go up pretty high, but i am sure you dont want to hear that

ug no
not from u
i wana see em myself

and then there is her stomach

she has that many scars?

no, no scars on her stomach

oh

its my favorate place because its the only place with out any

o0o0o

its perfectly smooth
and her little belly button, with the piercing

hahaha

and her chest
it has scars

wow

but it is still amazing
perfect set

hahaha

flawed only with random markings of her own hand
there is one
on her left one i think
she took a pin to her it and put pen ink in the cut to try to make a tatoo, its of a heart

hahaha

and higher up on her chest are markings when she took a pen cap to herself
a couple from pen caps
another on her upper arm

pen caps?
thats kinda random

yeah
she was freaking out, couldnt find her blade, tore up her room, and came away with a pen cap
just scratched the hell out of herself

awwww geez

and you wanna know something amazing?

whats that

ask me how she got through it all

ummm
u?

yup

nice
thats why i care so much

thats why i cant ever let her go
even through the drugs, when i would stop talking to her, i knew she would come back to me
and thats why i hate her, for letting me fall in love with her so much
its making things rather complicated now

yeah i bet

9 fucking years

thats a long time

yup

My Hell

I know that smile of yours
The one you rarely show
The one I coaxed from your lips
Only a few times
And I know what makes it hide
The demons you despise
Cursed objects of your admiration
For what can make one such as yourself
Cower in pure fright?
But I also know of a lighter topic
Of a river of tears
So damn strong even the mote of my thumb
Cannot hold them back
Because for what you weep
Is a separate demon all on its own
One of beauty and loss
Of love and fear of loathing
A demon you play with often
A demon you chose over me

Far, Far Away

I was driving to dog sit today.
It was about eleven
at night when I decided to leave.
On the way home
I came to a dead end road,
with one of those yellow signs
with the arrow
pointing in both directions,
as if people couldn't see
that the road did
in fact end there.
Left was home.
Right was not.
I turned right, and sped.
After about twenty minutes
I turned around,
realizing I was missing
two things I needed to do
what I so badly wanted;
my phone charger,
and my computer.
If I had happened
to bring both of these things,
I would probably be in PA
right now, and have no intentions
of going back.